name is cerissa…like marissa or carissa but deranged.

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Outstanding Oscar Speeches

I am currently in tears after hearing Graham Moore’s speech about how he attempted suicide at age 16 and  encourages kids to stay weird, to stay them. I have never been so inspired. Yes the movie,


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The Imitation Game deserved the award but I believe it was meant to be. A higher power permitted this man to give his speech to inspire suffering outsiders around the world. It was meant to be. That speech had to happen. The world had to hear it. The amount of bravery and courage it took for Graham to get up on that stage and mention a time of pain on an international awards ceremony show was enormous, I praise him for it.


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John Legend and Common Selma gave a remarkable performance and speech for racism. The speech was moving and beautiful. The speech had the crowd in tears. Chris Pine was shown crying and at the end of the performance he shot up clapping furiously, as did the rest of the crowd.Both the speech and performance of the song Glory well deserved the standing ovations.


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When Eddie Raydeman won his Oscar for The Theory of Everything I had never been happier witnessing the amount of joy that he portrayed. He shook with excitement and thanks during his entire speech. He dedicated his speech to patients and families with love ones suffering form ALS which I thought was beautiful. He deserved the award and for the large kiss he gave his wife when he won, he definitely deserves a “one night off from listening to me complain” pass.


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Now…Patricia Arquette. PATRICIA ARQUETTE, proudly stood on that stage with the world staring her down and defended all women around the world. Sexism is a large issue in today’s society and women need to take a stand. Meryl Streep and Jennifer Lopez leaped from their chairs out of happiness as Patricia Arquette and I would like to believe every women hearing that speech did the same. I sure did! I’m so proud to be a female in this world, I will fight for change.

All of the speeches tonight were very beautiful. The show was amazing and I do no regret staying up till midnight to watch the entire thing.

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Go Down the Rabbit Hole: A Writer’s Manifesto

Writing for Digital Media

1. You are the work. The work is you: both an articulation of the self and a possibility for self-reflection. Be honest in creation: allow yourself to bleed into the work, but also allow it to work on you. Your work can show you things: illuminate and clarify your own thoughts, motivations, actions. If you do it right, you will find the work changing you, too.

2. Thinking is process. Laying on the floor. Sitting on park benches. Getting lost on purpose. These are all working. Learn the difference between mindless distraction and mindful wandering.

3. Go down the rabbit hole. Sometimes the work isn’t about what you think it is. Allow yourself to get lost down alleyways, to follow a train of thought around a corner. Don’t feel you need to reign yourself in. Too much focus squeezes all the possibility for revelation out of the work.

4. Fear…

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Recap in Awe

For the first time since September of 2013, I reread my piece Spacious. When I posted it, I didn’t have the chance to read the rest of it. Theres a lot of pain in that piece. Some of the words emphasized for screams and I know that at one point in my life that’s what I truly felt. As if I needed a guy to rely on all the time. Looking back on it, the scene hurts my heart thinking about all of those years done suffering from someone else’s fault, someone I should have been looking up to, but to recover from everything, the change is grand. I went from the mean and hurting person I was to an independent,healthy and happy character. I have confidence and pride in myself, I’m surrounded by such beautiful,amazing people where I now stay and I couldn’t be happier. These are the friends I was meant to have and this was the life that I deserved but without the pain and without the hurt I wouldn’t be where I am today, so strong and brilliant. I’m thankful. 100% thankful. I might have to do a recap of that piece, almost like a transformation.

So many good things are to come, as will a relationship when life happily grants me one that I’ll finally accept. When I decide,bud.

Train of Shattered Gems

I don’t like the way time dribbles between my fingers, a stream of unholy adventures and filthy,mutilated thoughts. I do like how minds differ by the inability of the human mind to correlate all contents in time. Best said by H.P, not me. Oh no.

The farther the train travels, the faster the steam spews,the richer the ruby mind.

I yearn for ideas similar to foreign gems, for blood more divine than a crystal’s structure. A crave for pure, enriching, prosperous love. Nothing less than impressive letters dripping in a midnight aura.

Love seeps into the vast spaces the mind cannot grasp, the vast spaces that shall never touch ends. These reaching hands that will never touch, these binding fingers that will never lock. The ruby mind fades to an emerald glow, angel like, lovely in a resplendent way, delectable in a sappy,gratifying taste.

I don’t like the way time escapes my body, depleting to nothing in moments. I do adore how love gently floats into my void, licking the walls of my mind that my thoughts shall never encounter. And although I may never meet the half of me, the love that meets me will.